Sometimes I feel like we waste our words and we waste our moments. Its like we don’t take the time to say things that are in our hearts when we have the chance... and then its too late.
As a senior, I've begun to look back at my years in high school and the decisions I made. Let me make it clear, I do not believe in regrets. However, I do think its important to reflect on your life and learn from it in a broader perspective. You've seen the movies, you've read the books, and you've heard it in the news... the people who take their life for granted and one little decision changes everything. You can take this information to a micro or macro perspective. From cheating on a test to not wearing your seat-belt.
Take every opportunity to step back from reality and assess your life. Is it everything you want? Do you feel you are making a mark on the world? Do you feel worthy? Do you feel like you are a genuine person and that you have seriously contributed to people on this earth?
Ok.... then change it.
You are the mastermind of your own life. Start from this very second and make an impact on the world. Take every breathe you've breathed on this earth and use those instances to further someone else. I was recently hurt by someone who I loved very very much. I am so angry at how they hurt me and lied to me. I blame myself because I'm obviously not pretty enough or nice enough for him. That's when you tell yourself to shut the hell up. You are worth it! God isn't going to give you anything you can't handle. This has probably been the most difficult time in my life as everything that could go wrong, has.
I believe, without a doubt, that there was a purpose in all of this. I want people to know what I went through because I want to help them through it too. That isn't to say that I'm not still hurt, because I am. I love him and hate him with all the strength in me. But I am allowed to move on... because I am worth it. Maybe not to him, maybe not to a friend, but there are enough people that love me and will fight with me to become stronger out of all of this. I actually feel relieved, as if I have gotten through this and I am ready for whatever is next. I so want to help people that are going through this, because if they don't have support like I was fortunate to have...I just can't even imagine. Its so easy to shut people out and hide away from the world, but you are loved. Whoever is reading this, I love you and I would do anything in my power to help you if you need it.
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